I may be weak..

Of course my last weeks in Guam will be packed full of spiritual and emotional intensity, right?  So God rocked my world a bit yesterday and then pounded it home this morning and I’ve spent the whole day enjoying my friends whilst mulling over deep things in the back of my mind.  The gist of it is that a friend of mine confronted me in an area of my life that I have been complacent and gave me sufficient motivation to make some changes.  That makes it sound neat and pretty but in fact it involved tears and threats and rage blackouts.. well, maybe not that intense.  But it was certainly not my finest moment.  My sin nature does not like being exposed for what it is.

So while I was sitting in church listening to a sermon about adultery, my brain started pulling out principles and truths relating to my current scenario; train your mind to be disciplined and faithful now, develop habits of honesty, learn to be mature, have realistic expectations and do not get complacent.. lots of good stuff there.  Mid-sermon I started humming the tune to Give Me Faith by Elevation Worship in my head and God was soothing my heart with these words..

“Give me faith to trust what you say,
That you’re good and your love is great.
I’m broken inside, I give you my life..”

My heart and flesh will fail me for sure, there isn’t any doubt of that.  I don’t have any illusions about being a strong and diligent person, no qualms about admitting that I am as lazy and self-absorbed as they come, but I have the source of all goodness and strength powering my spirit and that is more than enough to conquer (AND ABOLISH!) the ingrained habits of sin in my life.  He has given us everything we need for life and godliness.  (2 Peter 1)  Oooohh, that’s good stuff, here’s the whole passage with some added emphasis..

“His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness.  Through these (his glory and goodness) he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them (great and precious promises) you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.”  2 Peter 1:3-4

There is more, go read it.  My point is that I can live a godly life because of my knowledge of God, knowledge being key to having the things needed for the godly living.  (I had to edit this paragraph down because my brain shot off in 20 different directions and it was very inspiring, but also rather convoluted.)  But at any rate, it made sense to me and I was able to be at peace because I knew that the Spirit inside me would provide the strength and discipline that I lack.

I did not mean to go all Bible study on you, but it felt good.  🙂  So the words that had me humming (silently) and smiling in a tiny private worship service mid-church?

“I may be weak, but your spirit’s strong in me.
My flesh may fail, but my God you never will..”

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