Today was good, I got up early and drove to work in our family van which I’m borrowing till I can get a car. Everybody at work is nice and I had minimal trouble getting caught up on the changes in the last six months.
Today was also bad, because of the biweekly pay schedule I’m not going to have any money until December 28th and the van is a gas guzzler. My six months of pauperhood has made it difficult for me to get the loan I need for a car and I feel like a moocher.
I don’t feel like I’ve been having epic adventures for the past year. Honestly, everything around me is so familiar (home, room, work..) that it is easy to feel like I’ve failed at life and I’m broke and futureless. But I’m not. I’m scraping the bottom of the barrel and having to be humble, but I’m doing what needs to be done in order to get back on my feet. God is still in control and I trust him to give me what I need for today. Even small blessings like being excited about my peanut butter and homemade jam sandwiches for tomorrow’s lunch.
Could you do me a favor and pray right now that God would provide a car and money enough to make it until the 28th? I’m not doubting him at all, but I’m excited to see what he can do in my life if you all are willing to add some umph. 🙂
Thank you, friends!